Have you forsaken us?
Thank you for all the outreach and prayers on Molly’s behalf. She was admitted to the hospital and will be there for two weeks. She just finished surgery and is doing great. As a form of appreciation for all the support that was shown I want to share something with you. Prior to Molly going into the hospital I told her that I had a great feeling about this visit. I told her that more than ever before I was feeling calm about this visit and that I knew everything was going to be great. Then at her appointment after thorough evaluation it was determined that she wasn’t doing great and needed to be admitted. I was definitely taken back. How could I have felt so calm and confident that everything was going to be ok, and yet obviously it wasn’t. After I got the news I flippantly looked to the sky as if I was talking with God and said “well thanks a lot I thought everything was going to be ok.” Shame on me right? Even typing this I get a pit in my stomach. Well nonetheless its what happened. Later that evening the missionaries were in our home teaching a friend of mine. During their lesion they invited my friend to think about a time that God had answered his prayers. I again flippantly thought to myself “well I can think of a time he didn’t answer mine”. Just as that thought ran through my mind it was like I was spiritually slapped in the face. Thoughts came into my mind as if they were not my own. It was like God was talking with me through my thoughts. I was then firmly taught a lesson I will never forget. It went something like this:
“Dayne why do you think you felt like it was going to be ok. Stop pouting and realize that the answer to your prayers is that she is admitted to the hospital and she is getting the help she needs and that is how she is going to be ok. Just because things didn’t work the way you envisioned you thought I forgot you, but I was to busy answering your prayers and taking care of your daughter to interrupt your pity party.”
I’m sorry God.May we never question the kindness of our Heavenly Father to his children even if we don’t understand.#bestillandknowthatIamGod